for some reason, i find it comforting when it rains at night. (:
you can't see the dark clouds and the raindrops, but somehow the sound of the rain, the raindrops splattering against the windowpanes and the roof tiles, is oddly soothing.
the world outside my window feels like its been blanketed by a layer of coldness and calm.

this weekend has been rather unproductive, unfortunately.
i think i can call it a weekend of memories, just because so many memories were unearthed this weekend.
and all those memories keep bouncing around inside my head and refusing to settle down, which makes it very hard to concentrate on anything else. (except watching private practice hoho)
sometimes i wish we were able to choose which memories to hold on to and which to let go, because oftentimes, it seems the ones we hold dear melt away faster than snow on a sunny day and the ones we would rather forget seem etched eternally in our minds.

between this year and the last, so many many things have changed.
i've grown so much closer to 3H this year(yay for that (: ), but at the same time it feels like the distance between myself and the whole swimming fraternity is widening.
it's so strange how previously, when so much of my time was devoted to swimming, i never really felt like i was making sacrifices in terms of going out and a social life and stuff like that, yet now when i actually have time to spend with the class, time (and energy) to actually go for class outings, i feel like i'm making a sacrifice in terms of swimming.
What of, i can't really put into words, but the feeling does weigh down on me from time to time.
and sometimes i wonder how the retirees have done it.
how is it possible to cut yourself off completely from something which you have been involved in for so long?
maybe i tend to hold dearer the friendships i've forged with fellow swimmers, since i've known most of them alot longer than majority of my current classmates.
but whatever the case, i'm sure the bonds formed within the class will strengthen overtime too (:

hmm this was such a reflective post!
but i guess that's enough reflection for now, time to get to grips with reality and work on electrochem tutorial.
blah :/

oh and
hello yujun and jason! haha(:

Words we have said
Grew in my head
Coloured my thoughts
Sang me to bed

Lost memories
Grew into trees
Covered the doors
Swallowed the keys

Winters have come and gone, you know
Winters have come and gone, you know
But I'll meet you young and free
For a dance 'round the memory tree

Said I forgot
But I did not
Dreams we have had
Play in my head

Did we believe
The cry of the leaves?
Did we regret?
Would we forget?

Winters have come and gone, you know
Winters have come and gone, you know
But I'll meet you young and free
For a dance 'round the memory tree
-Oren Lavie